having your chance...

saturday morning = rest, lie in, not work.
so, how come i'm up at half seven, feling awake and wondering about what to do today? feeling active and therefore deciding to 'do' something today, even if only go for a walk.
sigh
right - time to clear room, clear head, do washing, but food organise and arrange things better

spoke to the guy-i-finished-the-relationship-with-to-go-travelling last night. Broached the subject gently but i a half-joking manner. He looked so well, and his eyes made me melt. I couldn't help staring at him while he was eating. But, there we go. had the relationship. chose to end it. now have to face that consequence.
[and before anyone comments on how i've been a tar with loads of other people while off travelling - i am not unaware of this fact. indeed, all too aware.
Would i turn back clcock and continue... don't know. but i do know is that i will always care for him, despite him thinking i was just staring at him because he didn't eat the food his mumhad prepared but instead had brought with him a tesco's readymeal...

looks like it will be a nice day. been offered to go to a mate of mine in northampton area - have declined - i don't need extra mind stuff right now - emotional i mean - and that will just add to it - he's a grt guy but want to get things cleared with mr. Bow first...

oh what a tangled web...

Laters