achievemens, goals and foci

There is a film called Angel-A. Very good. The trivia section on imdb informs the reader of how the leading actress learned conversational French in TWO WEEKS s she could get the part.
TWO WEEKS
I'm reflecting on how, when I'm doing things for other people, I can move mountains out of the way, bearing any amount of burden for someone else (middle name Christopher...) but when it comes to self, can't have the same motivational ability.
why?
dunno is not a good enough answer - fully looking into this one now. I'm wanting to learn new skills but don't have the motivation behind me (no film roles here yet) to enthuse me into doing it. That, alongside my ability to organise being equal to a cats survival rate in a proverbial place and you'll note how I'm not doing so great.
Someone recently read my blog and email how i come acoss as bored. maybe i am. in fact, yeah, i am bored. but not travel lust bored. just needing some more focus. so, back to the druid board methinks...