Dark mornings and free time

It went wrong.
today.
I'd like it back please.

What do you mean, not possible, learn and live with it? What have I learned today? I suffer from depression, this prevents me from getting up properly and therefore I run late for work, have to phone in late and travel a different route because transport for London don't see the necessity for a train at 8.20am to sidcup?
what have i learned today? that the school i work for are treating me like a cover teacher, that the frees i had today which i scheduled to help the school out with (by getting budgets sorted, deals arranged and things organised) wasn't possible?
that when i do cover the kids i teach don't respect you. i knew this already. i didn't need reminding...
unless...
unless this is the beginning of an awareness that mainstream teaching isn't for me. but we've been here before, I've returned to this country, doing this job to get money for travel... so why is it i feel a failure, and low, when i can't do the job to my satisfaction, having to call on senior management to 'bail me out'?
but it's ok - it's pay day.
apart from when the agency put the wages into the account you specifically tell them not to and it gets swallowed up, leaving you feel poor, useless, unable to do the things you wanted to and, ultimately, like you have no money ergo power.
i can't help out Dave. i can't give Ian the half of the money i owe him for something he's getting online. i can't by the trousers i ripped at the school i'm working at and therefore claim back yet. i can' have the drink i arranged with my friend this evening because, while on the phone she said she would get them, i wanted it to be dutch, to feel part of an older group and friendship.
so yes. today, i would like back please.
not possible?

there's always tomorrow...

In French, Tuesday is "Mardi", associating it with the planet Mars and the signs Aries and Scorpio. Tuesday is also associated with the ex-planet Pluto. People born on this day show the qualities of Mars, Aries, Scorpio, and Pluto. This marries Tuesday with ideas of strife, battles to be won and pressing issues and jobs to get sorted. It is not a day to relax.