Deracination*

So, I´ve spent about 4 years of my life training and working as a teacher in some form or other. I communicate with people quickly and well. (typos excluded!!!)
I meet people at breakfast from Korea. Somehow, I´m able to convey to people (using bread, jam and a spilt glass of orange juice) the name Martin, it´s origin and enquire whether there is anything similar in Korea [just dont ask]
No surprise then that the agency I signed up with in London for teaching has enquired whether I´m available for work, despite travelling. And thinking about it, as money becomes a little low, it IS tempting (full Media post, all boys school so behaviour should (?) be easier...)
yet.
and yet.
erm...

I have stumbled across a Travel bar as well in Barcelona whose owner is going to Morocco by Van. offering lift for petrol money. also tempting.
I´m also feeling the pull to go further east/south east and the ferry that leaves tomorrow from barcelona is very appealing (€29 + tax from bcna to rome).
money vs time vs destination vs homesickness and missing freiends slightly vs...
vs a pure self need to keep travelling and do what it is that is pulling me away. Despite a few minor lessons in people skills, is it arrogant to state that I´ve not really accomplished much while i´ve been away? Sure, seen some amazing things and not knocking that, but [and I´m aware that this probably reads like a spoilt brat typing now] I feel this journey should be doing something more.

The only thing that is drumming aroeund in the cranuçium is my attitude towards bisexuality/homosexuality and my own behaviour (past and present).
[if you didn´t know I was into guys, dear reader, while reading this, then you´ve propbably come across this blog by accident or didn´t know me very well]

so yes. spoilt brat wants enlightenment. or God. or some focus...

perhaps sleep?


*deracinate \dee-RAS-uh-nayt\, transitive verb:

1. To pluck up by the roots; to uproot.
2. To displace from one's native or accustomed environment

Deracinate comes from Middle French desraciner, from des-, "from" (from Latin de-) + racine, "root" (from Late Latin radicina, from Latin radix, radic-). The noun form is deracination.