Equinox. Re-addressing the balance

"I'm Sorry"

Two words which cme from the person's mouth about an hour ago. The person who I wrote about, the person who has sought counselling, healing, and medical advice. Who is choosing to make her life better.

I accepted.

I feel better - no more oath of anger around my neck, no more upset - by no means will I forget the damage done, and it will be a time yet for all the wounds to hel, bu the forst stones of the bridge are repalced with stronger ones. Ones that have been reflected upon, that have caused damage to ALL involved and now, hoefully, can be rebuilt upon.

With that being done, I now feel lighter, more tired, ready for tomorrow where I thank the universe for getting me to this point. My journal will soon, it seems, have to be redone. Saturn has returned in my chart.

I reflect on the ideas in the last few weeks that have occured - the year itself. More when I have time to understand all implications - but yes, the big dramatic thing I was expecting - wasn't big in action. It was small and frail - an apology.

It reminds me of how we are all fragile - how we are all affected by our emotions, and if I am to become a peacemaker in the world, then I had beter get used to being more damn humble and less proud. People do stupid things when they are angered - we only have to look at the world around us - as a teacher I break up many people about to fight all the time - for what? Damaged pride most of the time: "your mum" etc.
We live in a world that is damaged - where we all value things which, at the end of the day, are just opinions - reputatin, ego, identity - all are fragile and important yet ultimately valueless and irreplacable at the same time.
We do? Nohing. Everything. It matters not in the end it seems - but if we can make someone else's journey on the way a bit better - then surely the world is all the better for it.