good start

pah
ok - so: single. split amicably but wasn't working [clash of personalities etc.]
just painted my room - yay - feel like a kid and an adult at same time.
about to go buy a smaller roller - hehehe - look at me - all growing up..

last night went for a drive in some chariots, night before found solace in some alcohol -and some more.. and some more. got home at 5. grin
yay - i'm almost reverting to old lifestyle...
but..
not.
don't worry people - all cool - just needing a little more me time then normal service resumed. rejection - who DOES handle it well?

1 month, 7 days, what a difference it can make

Yes.
here has been a disruption to the normal service of random thoughts etc from my head due to a few differing situations in my life.
None of them bad per se, but all of them needing some working out, and without the thoughts of ochers interrupting, no matter how well intended.
There is an ex of mine traveling in search of answers for his spirituality. I have wished him well and hope for all the best for him.
Myself - my spirituality has asked of me one question - am i ready to commit to something more than myself. The chaos and randomness of my life is seeking order yet i refrain from holding it still - letting it wonder I have recently played a priest of Loki, the trickster, and if that wasn't a opportunity to get rid of al the non-committal, I don't know what is. So amused I was to see the latest issue of Touchstone, the druid magazine, discussing Loki - only a little footnote but amusing nonetheless. Something is steering things for me...

I've also, tentatively entered into courting/dating someone - unsure how it is going, but he is a really nice guy, with nothing about him to dissuade me from making a go of it - its just my head space, trying to get a 'fix' on things. perhaps all will fit into place shortly?

work wise - I'm teaching maths full on - having taken the classes of someone else - the school staff are playing political power games to get everyone happy - won't mention names, but needless to say, loyalties are being tested - primarily to self and department, but heck, how do you get things done - druidic learning studying here - diplomacy and subtle words in backgrounds - i feel partially Machiavellian and partly like a character from Shakespeare's tragedies... not Iago, just touchstone...

ah - the looops of thought echoing one another. So now, I am left in a place where there are tents drying round me [not metaphor but wet weather after a really good mayfest LARP], my room is in transference stages - trying to sort out new room from old with stuff - yes mum, will be down soon to collect remainder of stuff..

hugs to everyone reading this - apologies been a long time coming, and if anyone wondering where the emoition is - it's coz i'm knackered. lots going on - this should become a daily writing again shortluy - lemme just get the room sorted first.. which colour...