needing a longer skipping rope

There's a new TV Series starting on channel 4 tomorrow night and it looks gret. I mean GREAT. As in philosophical, musical, linked to everything I stand for and want to be part of.
Its very good - after seeing the trailer - yeah - more please.


in other news - work today informed me that the NUT are striking at my school, resulting in no work on Thrusday - ergo no money for one day work. the irony is, without the pressure, I won't get better money next year and onwards - sigh - the hassle...
did ghandi ever wonder about short term violence for long term peace - no -the conflict too huge - so I'm left with having to sacrifice one day for a better year- when i put it like that - it's not that bad - will ise it constructively - go the horniman museum again and hoefully do some private tutoring...

hope all well with you

of all the people

there was a guy at uni called Chris [will spare him surname] who taught me a lot about people and reactions. He lost it one night, and i mean, LOST it. we're talking temper outta window and mashed up his house.
needless to say, reactions were not favourable. He put some people in their place, pushed many people's boundaries and frankly, acted like a twat.
BUT, and this is important, he realised this and apologised at the time - well a little after but still did it.
I had a lot of respect for him then. Still do - as he has recently got in touch with me facebook [ so yes all of you people non-uni elated can have a quick examination and work out who etc if you get so bored you need to...] - and we've started catcing up on time.
Something he said stuck, reminded me of who I am again- always good that:

"I hope you yourself have managed to make of life what you wanted, of all of us i thought you were the strongest candidate."

What I wanted... - already discussed this at length in previous posts but yeah - what do I want - the druidry thing is good but at moment not grabbing me - or rather i' no picking it up - literally - sitting on the floor- the other person I'm sharing with is busy so no motivation there - perhaps need to get back into full swing first - or am I just being lazy [ don't answer that - i KNOW the answer! ]
hope you're well - I'm now in mixed sleep cycle - again - had a doze and now its three hours later - if i sleep now I'll be up at - exhausting myself now - obviously needed the sleep - but now - now - well, heck - milky ways are yummy...!

i didn't start the fire

food


there's a news story with link above about food shortages. crisis.
meanwhile, in america, many may children recovered from a sect are facing custody.
meanwhile, in tibet...
meanwhile..
meanwhile...

anyone else wanting a big guy in a red cape to come along? or one REALLY LOUD voice to tell us something?
From promethea and Alan moore to variety of religions, things aren't looking good at moemnt.
still - i've had a cheese toastie got a computer and some books so all is ok with the world? sigh - well aware it isn't but unsure which direction to go to...
anyone - pointers please!

last few days

My apologies for not posting more regular but I have decided to rest for a bit. As in do NOTHING.
And that is what I have done. And I feel great for such.
Now - the occurrences so far - well - My friend Ian had a christening and a wedding celebration over the weekend - saw lots of friends - dealt with a few things and generally had a nice time.
Monday was the funeral of Ronnie, met for the first time Ronnie's nieces Elizabeth and Margaret who were very nice, and learnt more about a man who I'd not had the time to previously.
Now - now it is Thursday - I'm all of a muddle as I'm thinking about what needs doing, how it needs doing, when it needs doing by and the remainders of things that can wait [ie tidying room - again!]
lists? ah, maybe...
When I feel like it, I'll fill in more of the emotional side here but needless to say - the last week and a half has been turmolic, but now is settling down again. Onwards...

mayfest

message from ian - one of the two guys i live with :
only two poeple have paid so far - if you wanna go, please get some payment to ian asap or event wont run...

watching me watching you

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/pressass/20080410/tuk-school-catchment-family-spied-on-6323e80.html
check out above link - please

10.51 - do you know where your washing is?

so yes, doing washing. cleaning. tidying up. the mundane, usual, ordinary.
trying not to get embroiled anymore in family politics but heck, i'm a human being who cares so hard not to...
shrug
gotta get stuff sorted for funeral on monday - hope all well with you reader - will pass onyour well wishes to my friends who have a christening tomorrow... where there's death, there's life.

update - got locked out. teehee...
now back in.
getting ready for tonmights ctulhu - ooh ooh - can print things out now as well - yay me...
skips slightly

tiredness

and so, one day abck, and i've spent most of the day in. not doing much - just chilling and frankly, it feels good.
tiring, but god..
now, got to work out where to put all of my books that i brought back with me

number 70

i've ranted and railed about how my family have treaten me - to a few friends now - that it only leaves the siple facts which, being tired, i don't want to rake over. but i will because i am a man of my word.
my great uncle ronnie died 2 fridays ago.
my nan, obvously upset, asked me to help out
i got papers from his house to help identify if there was a will, what it said if so, and where solictor was if not.
found will, unsigned, unwitnessed.
found solicitor who ahd an invalid will
meaning everything would go to other side of family.
cue three days of denying my faily the papers i'd gathered while i sought legal advice and my nan turned.
my nan is not well, my cousin wants to do things his own way and my mum, aunt and myself are caught in the middle - with me the bad guy
i amde an oath:
i will not talk to my nan again until she communicates with me first.

i meant and mean it though - enough is enough

i also got an email from a friend who i have a history wih - discussing our differences and similaities, highligting cerain truths which, while i am raw, aren't worth focussing on right now - tomorrow.


i also went to radstock and asw another friend onroute - though i lef behind m bel... careless... won't say why but i'm sure, dear reader, you can fill in some blanks.
yes, even in desir and anger i can find time for amusing myself...



i will rest now. long. then tidy evrything up again and prepare for this upcoming week... the storm is just gathering...

positivity

LIVE WORK LOVE
LAUGH GATHER GREET
STAY TRADE TRAVEL
BELIEVE BUILD
EAT DRINK & PLAY
SEE HEAR TASTE
TOUCH SIT
BREATHE SLEEP
TEACH LEARN
CARE CREATE
SOW GROW & REAP

these words are in shardeloes road on the way to new cross from brockley in london.
good words.
words that, right now, seem ever more important

write it and it will happen?

last three titles - death.
coincidence? As I'm progressing on in my life, looking at my spiritual development, trying not to be egocentric but self-focussed instead [difference will be explained one day!] I'm noticing more and more the patterns that occur around me.
is it more than just noting the patterns with divination?
Shrug
Anyhow - Ronnie left no valid will. My maternal family are sorting things out - or trying to.
If youa re reading this and have more assets than 10pence, write a will. Get it signed and witnessed. Please.
My family this week have gone through ehll, I have had to keep secrets, enquire about law and learn more about family dynamics than i thought previously possible.
Sigh
And now? Now my grandmother is grieving, upset, bitter and hardening tot eh world. "Its not about the money"
Yet it seems, after all, it is.
For those close to me in London, you know how things like this develoop in my family. For those elsewhere - I'll be coming to your doorstep real soon if things don't get balanced out.
This will tear my family apart unless it is calmed, sorted and organised and it is hard to watch that develop while knowing you ahve done all you can. To then have that hard work thrown back in your face hurts. Angers. REALLY angers.
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,
mustn't call...
9
breathe
10
there
now where were we? ah yes. family. can't choose them...